MJ_Raven

There are many days when I STILL just want to die after all that has happened in my life. Yet somehow, Jesus continues to give me joy, strength, and breath in my lungs, thereby fascilitating a reason and purpose for my life on this Earth. It's not all bad because I do have an amazing son who is my greatest blessing in this world! The times when he drives me nuts are still great because I love him so much and wouldn't exchange him for anything else in this world! The difficulty is in dealing with a constant pain and sorrow over what I have lost. God's word talks about marriage being two people becoming one and for me there is no longer a one, because it has been destroyed, ripped apart, decimated into utter oblivion. I would much rather lose a limb than to have to endure this pain I feel everyday. The pain of my soul being torn in two, at least that's what it feels like. For some reason, God has continually given me lots of love towards this person. The same love that ...